...then...4 years later. I completely forgot I'd even started a blog. I can't seem to remember why; must have been a low point in my life. Not that writing blogs means you're life is out of whack but I can't think why I did it.
I was 19 yrs old when I wrote that first post and so much has happened since then. I'll start chronicling those events at some point, but for now I'm just back on here because I'm at another pivotal point in my life and I really don't know how to go about sharing my thoughts and feelings with anyone without coming across as neurotic.
I'm not really one for journaling. I admire people who are dedicated enough to writing about their life on a daily or weekly basis. I've tried it, doesn't work for me (I can't even go to the gym two weeks in a row). And the weird thing is, I actually love to write. Writing is my thing, but I prefer to create wildly imaginative tales about...stuff (fiction).
I'm hesitant in pouring out my deepest darkest truths onto paper. But alas! here I am, about to do just that. I figured a blog would be a way of get my thoughts out there, as though I'm speaking to someone, anyone who will listen...anonymously, kind of.
I'm basically just talking to myself but to others as well, maybe. This means, I'm going to write as I think. And seeing as my thoughts are usually racing in a million different directions and tangled and upside down and right-side up all at the same time, so will these words I right. And for once, I'm perfectly okay with that. I know some people will think I'm crazy and some will understand exactly where I'm coming from and encourage my loonosity (yes, I just made that word up).
Also, seeing as I'm working on my first novel, I've done a lot of research and I found that it is important for writers to constantly write, whether it's related to the story or otherwise...just write! With that being said, don't go judging my writing skills in this blog, because I am literally just throwing words onto paper. There is no artistry or refinement or imagination here, so if that's what you're looking for look elsewhere or read my novel when it's published. :)
Anyways... if you're still with me, let's get back to what I was saying at the beginning. So, I'm 23 yrs old now, can't believe it...seriously, where has the time gone. I'm in final year of university and the first of my final exams is in exactly 32 days.
I am so scared. It's like my whole life is hanging in the balance. I find my course really interesting and the topics although scientific aren't particularly difficult to study. It's just that there is so much to learn and I fear I may have left a lot of the revision too late. I really shouldn't be worried because I do this EVERY TIME and somehow manage to do really well. But I tried so hard this time not to let the work pile up but there you have it, typical student.
I've just finished modifying my revision timetable and I realised that if I stay focused for the next 4 weeks, I can learn all I need and do very well in the exams. IF I STAY FOCUSED.
At the start of 2013, I was worried about what my next step after my undergrad would be, so started looking into possible career paths and further study and decided to apply for a Masters in Neuroscience...as if! I actually always dreamed of becoming a neuroscientist and just figured it would be a nice "next step". Well, surprise surprise I got an offer from one of the 3 schools I applied to and still waiting to hear back from the other 2.
I was so excited when I got the email! I literally couldn't believe it. I woke my brother up to tell him (he got all excited, too). I called my mom (she was ecstatic). It was a great feeling to know that a highly acclaimed university wanted me and thought I was good enough to be a student there. Now, you'd think that that was motivation enough to get me going. Nah! I'm back to me ole' procrastinatin' self. Grrr.
Okay, I've had enough venting for one night. I'm actually going to do some revision now. You've motivated me to do some work, so thank you, whoever you are... :) If there is anyone out there reading this, I'd love to know, so do comment (even if it's just to tell me I'm a rambler; I already knew that).
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