Why? Because I'd been disappointed earlier that day. I had plans. I had dreams. I had a future. But now the dream is delayed, the future has drifted farther away and the plans have changed.
So I decided to change as well. I started small. The lips were first.
Someone once called me a wallflower, they said I blended in too much...No one else I know shares that viewpoint. More people say that I'm beautiful, tall, elegant...even peculiar, but definitely not wallflower material.
However, despite so many great reviews about my person, I still cling to that one stray comment that may not even be true. The comment, long forgotten by the speaker. We do that all the time don't we? Hold on to the negative thoughts and opinions and disregard the positive truths. Well, I decided to change because I did not want to ever be considered a wallflower again and since I could not control other aspects of my life I would control this.
So I went into my favourite cosmetics store and stood staring at shelves of mascara, eyeliners, eye-shadow, lip-gloss, foundation creams etc. It could have been an overwhelming task but I had gone in with a purpose.
I began hesitantly, reaching out to closer inspect the little containers of colour, always looking, in the corner of my eye for the safe familiarity of the light pink hues I was so accustomed to wearing. I forced my eyes away from them and looked for the more extravagant shades.
Don't you just love the funny names they give to the different colours? Reading the ridiculous names helped soothe my nerves. I wonder who actually comes up with them.
Anyway, the one that caught my eye and caused me to reach out, was the very daring tone called Smooth Sangria. Has a nice ring to it huh? It was in a clear plastic tube so I could see the exact colour. I felt my heart begin to pick up its pace. It was such a bold, beautiful colour. Could I do it? Could I be beautiful and bold. Yes I could!
I was glad they didn't have samples for me to try because I'm sure I would have changed my mind, but once I purchased that tube and stood in front of the bathroom mirror, I knew I had made the right decision.
